Acknowledge and keep moving

Yes - it's here again.  Three days from now would have been my mother's 60th birthday.  Since 1995 we've had to say "she would have been...".  I have a busy week, the kind where I really can't deal with a day of "she would have been" or wonder what would she look like at this age.  I don't ever wonder what she would sound like, or what would she say - after she became "her" again, she was very predictably unpredictable.

Here's what I can say about mom turning 60...even though she was a life-long smoker, liked her boxed wine...she likely wouldn't have looked a day over 40.  She liked her hair color, her makeup, her moisturizer...I'm pretty sure the woman just wouldn't age.

I don't ever remember doing anything special outside of a birthday cake and spaghetti for dinner on her birthday. I do remember her annual reminder that she was pregnant...very pregnant on her 24th birthday, as I was born just a couple of days later.

Funny thing is that I was very pregnant with Iolani on my 32nd birthday.  I remember that miserable feeling of being fat, not fitting into pajamas, only wanting to eat drum stick ice creams.  And then a month later there was Iolani. I didn't really ever think about that until now.

So of course - now I've all teared up.  :-)

Needless to say - I miss my mom, even though we had this tumultuous relationship.  Someone once told me when I was not speaking to her that I'd regret the day I told my mom to go away.  I no longer regret the feeling, but it is a good reminder to take life just serious enough to pay attention to utility bills that come in colored envelopes.

Gotta go...Iolani wants her pink toothbrush to brush her Barbie's hair.

Twitter reports decline in use

For those who follow me on Facebook, Foursquare, and Twitter - You probably (or haven't) noticed a bit of a drop off.  Well...I'm a little technically challenged lately.  First - I lost my iPhone so I've been downsized to the old iPhone Iolani's been using.  Second - I'm back to using a PC at work, and I'm just not as fast as I used to be.  Maybe because I'm getting older, but my RSS feeds didn't import over a nicely as the Internet said it would. Lying internet bastards.... Thank God (and Chris) for the iPad!

If you don't know what an RSS feed is, then clearly you are not a bastard.  :-) If you do know what an RSS feed is and know how to get them out of Mac Mail and into Outlook...hook a girl up will ya?